Cat Food

No, I am not yet eating cat food although its the most foody smell in my kitchen at the moment . I decided to try a new version of catfood, salmon and shrimp, and it really does smell good, too good... No, the worst Ive succumbed to is squeezing a large globule of Agave Nectar on to my forefinger and popping it into my mouth! Of course I know that the more sugar I consume , the less likely I am to lose any weight , but it doesnt stop me. I could argue that my main goal isnt weightloss, its self discipline and mastery of my hunger ...and then I fail on both counts!! Im just hoping Ill "grow out" of it !!

Am I mad?

Apparently at least one of my friends thinks that Im mad ...there s probably far more than one but the others are too scared to tell me! Actually this friend didnt exactly tell me , she told another friend ....anyway I think she thinks that I am mad to fast cos she thinks Im doing it for weightloss and Im not sure if she knows about the drink ...in which case I might say I was mad too!
No, this is a personal quest (as I mentioned at the start of the blog) to conquer my addiction to food and to achieve something I would have previously considered impossible . I thrive on a sense of achievement and I want to kickstart a slimmer me by changing my habits.


Food as a Distraction

Yesterday I was doing some "yucky" paperwork that needed doing ...and then I suddenly jumped up and went to the kitchen , presumably to eat something. When I got there, I realised there was no food to eat. I stopped in my tracks and was immediately aware of how practised I have been at using food as a distraction.

Whenever a job gets tricky , I become either thirsty or hungry.
Just like a baby wants his dummy! Don't you just love these moments of awareness?!

Although I can drink water , I am now practising delaying my gratification until the job that I am doing is finished. This is a significantly new habit for me and it is thanks to two and a half days of fast that I have become aware of something that needed changing. I wonder what other new realisations are around the corner....

30 day Fast

It takes thirty days to break a habit, right? ...so I am currently open to the idea of extending the initial period of ten days ...but we'll see how things go. Id like to get to the point where I go a full day without thinking about food! Im sure my mind could be more usefully employed ....